mY Life :(

My life was a mess.. my heart breaking slowly as days past by.. the smile that i had will neva been seen again.. i had to start pretending for people who just don't understand how i feel.. everytime i go to gadong and kiulap, i see my past.. i'm avoiding it now by trying to stay at home.. avoiding my frens' invites to hang-out.. i just can't bare to see my past again.. But just when i thought my life is a total disaster, someone comes along and make it all better :) miss my <201> he's my saviour! the past few days he comforted me and made me smile again. He caught me when i was falling deep into the messes of my life... He picked me up when everyone else didn't dare to help me... But he's away again so i'm gona have to survive this week without him until he comes back and be my knight and shining armour again.. Although, deep inside i know this isn't gona last forever.. why? let's just say we made a promise to each other and that promise will keep us away from being together forever... :(( but its just our way to avoid getting hurt again..